List

• Jelly Bean has learned to take off his diaper in the middle of the night. For the past two mornings, I have walked in on a naked baby and a bunch of wee soaked bedding. I guess I just need to put britches on the little monster.
• Speaking of monsters, Brother was unbearable yesterday. He is saying stuff to me and behaving in a way that I didn't expect until he was a sullen pimply teenager. Both of my kids have been so rebellious lately, I worry they will end up in prison.
• I grew beans in the garden, but really I guess I don't know beans about beans. I couldn't tell if they were green beans or if they were the kinds of beans that you had with beans and rice. So I ripped them all out and put them in the compost pile and in their place, I transplanted bell peppers. I know what to do with bell peppers.
• I made salsa this past weekend with tomatoes, onions, garlic, cilantro, and nasturtium blossoms. It was really exceptionally good. I like cooking with flowers. It is novel.
• Speaking of cooking, I took Honey's grandpa some roast with onions and carrots and some chicken parmigiana with pasta this past Sunday. I worry about his eating since his wife is gone and he doesn't know how to cook...anything. Really. He called later to thank me for the "chicken patty and spaghetti." Doesn't sound nearly like something you would want to eat when you put it that way. Oy.
• I haven't been wearing makeup or fixing my hair lately. I just don't want to. Ok, the hair is a bit much, but I don't think I really lose anything by not wearing lipstick and mascara.
• Father's day is coming up and I am looking at a whole stack of unannounced bills. (Don't you hate unannounced bills? Like $50 you owe the dentist because no one told you that you had that procedure wasn't covered or the flood insurance that went up $40 for no damn good reason?) I don't know what the hell I am going to do.
• I have been all boo-hoo-weepy this week. Hormones suck.
• I wrote and old professor of mine about school librarianship because I miss my kids in the summer more than when they are at school. Because school is mandated by law, so I don't feel as "bad". But Brother wakes me up in the morning everyday asking if we can get to the daycare early because he is so eager to go. I guess it can't be that bad.
• Anyway, school librarianship. There are a lot of good opportunities right now and I think I could pass the test, but I am too scared to leave my cushy job. Sigh. I wonder if I will ever have courage for a career change. I guess that will happen when I really want it.
• I have reports to do. Lots of them. Adios!